It occurred to me quite late in life what belief is, and i am still on my way of completely allowing myself to believe, that i believe me. No matter how fundamental the concept is, i keep revising it for most part of the time of my day, daily. It was a struggle at the beginning but now its an idea, waiting to be turned into a habit. Its a deliberate effort of a vulnerable heart to receive the backing of the brain, busy being an expert of realities. Thoughts are places i visit so often that i either forget coming back home or get too tired after i am back. Its the easiest way of flying when the winds cannot fill the wings or in my case of upsetting reality, the disguised blessing of not having the wings at all. Oh yes, i always knew i lack wings, like literally always. From the time when i feared standing up in a class to speak, to the time when i speak to a class, i always knew i lacked wings. But something is good about this fact, that its a fact, not a truth, well not my truth. I do not look like my truth and it is all i am made of. I am not all love inside but most of what i am, keeps me alive, from the inside, in a world where loving comprises with the living. I am aware of the reality and this awareness has brought me the most calming tool, which in my case is 'acceptance'. I am happy or can try to make myself happy because after a very long time of childhood inhibitions, the grownup version has finally accepted the facts and is set to change it. Experiences are crucial, you need them. Expectations are cruel, we feed them. And i think its a loop we create in our lives that we learn from experiences emanating from failed expectations. There is a realization lately that as much important it is to accept your fact, its equally essential to expect from your truth. The fact gives you the point of start and your truth, well it can take you wherever you want. The bird was never caged but that does not mean she has taken a flight. So yes the dream is the obvious dream of the view from top, the dream of not shaping the only life in a certain preconceived mold and the dream of living the truth despite the fact. Yes its known that the bird is without wings but the love inside believes that for the feel of flying, all she needs is the feel to fly. The sky is the limit, and its always someone's belief in their wings that keeps it limited or beyond.
He is the One. You seem like the scent of a long-gone childhood You seem like a song hidden in a diary It was the elevator where our eyes sparked a smile, The smile that blows off a candle from its heat The smile that plants a love grenade. I adore your face Like a sunflower keeping up with the sun, I have met you in ways Like a mirage that never meets the horizon. Your wind keeps the winter warm. When you become the sun that struggles to peep, Your wind draws my hair on the face While I hear the jingling wind chime to sleep. I adore the geometry of the diameter of your nostrils, I adore your pearly eyes that keep me awake even when I dream about them in dreams, I dream of your eyes, I dream of them falling for the mole on my cheek, For my unkempt paint-less soft feet, For my shy dark eyebrows, For my fingers, when they run through your mind, For the way I make you laugh out of nowhere, For the way, I held myself str...
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